Remembering 9/11 — Interior Dialogue

 I wrote as I watched, in real time, the events of that day unfold.  This article originally appeared on the website on September 11, 2001.

Interior dialogue, September 11, 2001

I’m watching New York. Seeing the buildings come down. Listening to the commentators. Dan Rather quotes Edmund R. Morrow: “No one can terrorize a whole nation unless we are his accomplices.”

I refuse to be complicit in a conspiracy of hatred. I refuse to add a shred of fuel to the fire and devastation.

I have recourse to the primordial energy that launched the universe. That’s Love. I can’t afford – for my own safety and for that of my country – to go anywhere else. I cannot allow one thought of blame and recrimination, revenge or retribution to weasel its way into the borders of my thinking. I must fill every crevice with love. It’s the only way I can be effective.

This HUGE negative energy reverberating in crashes and and explosions across the country must be neutralized. Here and now. It cannot be neutralized by more negative energy. So I HAVE to respond with love – and more love – and more love. I have to pour it in. Be that love in action. I desperately need to love. It’s the only way I can be totally safe. It’s the only effective help I can be – here so far removed from the physical scene. It’s got to start here and now. Right in my thinking. This hatred, uncontrolled temper, rabid anger will NOT find a like response in me.

Please, Father-Mother God. Help me do this. It’s not something that’s humanly possible. That kind of love can only come from you. Please, just make me transparent so Your love can shine through.

I continue to watch the news. President Bush just spoke with disdain of a “faceless” coward. Spoke of the need to hunt the attackers down and punish them.

I have to ask from the depths of me – HOW? How do you “punish” someone who has already blown himself to smithereens?

A faceless enemy coming from nowhere is the essence of my worst nightmares. But what do I do if I DO come face to face with the terror – or the terrorist? Do I transform myself into a like image – something even more horrible, fearful and diabolical in order to crush him completely? To do so would hand terror the victory.

Keep me sweet, dear God. Do not let my enemy mold me to his image. The only arms I want are Yours, wrapped around me, around all. I will open these arms of mine, stretching to match my reach to Yours. I know Your power is behind me when I do this.

3 responses to “Remembering 9/11 — Interior Dialogue

  1. Amen

  2. Susan, Thank you for your reflections. I know I also felt this way on 9-11, as did many others. But the choice of revenge by U.S. “leaders” prevailed, and the current economic turmoil – and the needless deaths and destructions – are a direct result of the hateful, fearful and greedy decisions of those in power. However, as long as there is Love, we might take to heart this quote (actually, my Aquarian “Free Will horoscope this week by Rob Brezsny:) “What has been spoiled through human mistakes can be made good again through human work. It is not immutable fate that has caused the state of corruption, but rather the abuse of human freedom. Toil that is done to correct the situation bodes well, because it is in harmony with cosmic potentials. Success depends on diligent deliberation followed by vigorous action.”

    • Aysha, your quote puts me in mind of another by Mary Baker Eddy. I would replace “manfully” with “courageously.” But that’s my Inner Guadalupe coming out. 🙂 It’s good to be reminded where the REAL war needs to be waged.

      Self-ignorance, self-will, self-righteousness, lust, covetousness, envy, revenge, are foes to grace, peace, and progress; they must be met manfully and overcome, or they will uproot all happiness. Be of good cheer;
      the warfare with one’s self is grand; it gives one plenty of employment, and the divine Principle worketh with you, — and obedience crowns persistent effort with everlasting victory.

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